My First Ever Video Blog- Oneness and Waking Up

HI Everyone!

Below is a link to our first video blog! This was recorded last April right before we went to India. It is old news but we wanted to get it up so we could get some feedback from you about how you like the video version of blogging as well as the written word.

I will be writing a new update and/or posting another video blog very soon.

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Calling On YOU and Your TRUE Purpose

 

        Many of you have been following my blog about my surgery and the Awakening that followed.  If you have not you can go to the calendar here on word press and click on May, 2008.  That is where is begins.  OR you can just read this and see how it resonates.

        After my surgery I began having increased visions and information come through me (from the higher aspects of myself, along with The Council of Light and the Council of One) that has given me a great deal of information that I am compelled to share here and as many places as I can.

        I will back up for a moment to let you know that I started receiving this information back in 1982 shortly after my car accident and near-death experience.  I was very excited about it but did not know what to do with it and now I realize that I was not ready nor was the planet or mankind.  Now we all are!

        I am going to give a VERY short version here of some basic information.  I have quite a bit more that I have taped and am having transcribed to keep you informed and updated.  For Now:          

 I am putting out a Clarion call (a Huge Bellow to all UniversesJ) for those who know they are here for something that they may not be able to put their finger on.  I am creating an organization to bring together the millions of VERY advanced Beings who are ready to step up and out to bring this planet and the humans to a new level of Frequency, Light and Love.  I know you are one of these Beings. 

 

If you are reading this you are imprinted with a deeper knowing that you may or may not be conscious of yet.  It is time to awaken that piece inside of you.  It is time to come alive with what you know that is beyond your conscious memory.

 

The InterDimensional Peace Project is a connection point for those who have been searching for the information about who they are and what part they play in the overall plan of Awakening.

 

  I have been getting information most every day and am clear that I am to disperse this information and energy to gather the like-minded souls who are imprinted, willing and ready to raise the frequency of themselves and this planet, which will in turn shift ALL planets and Dimensions.  You are already encoded with this information.  It is in your DNA not necessarily your conscious mind.

 

Many (but not all) have had hard times, Dark Night of the Soul/Ego and struggling in one or many areas of Life…now there is an opening occurring so we can move on things easier.  Many that have been stumbling are those who are now ready to step out of the fog. 

 

Some clues that you are one of these Enlightened Beings who have come to participate in this Grand Project:

 

1.     Deep depression or mild bouts of depression.

2.   A sense of hopelessness.

3.   Struggle with Money, Relationships and or Health.

4.   A feeling of having no purpose in Life.

5.   Feeling like you do not belong here on this planet.

6.   A feeling that you are here to do something but you do not know what.

7.   A feeling of Dark Night of the Soul/Ego.

8.   Doing what you love to do and still knowing there is more.

9.   Unexplained mood swings, anger, irritation, sadness or grief.

10.        A desire to die.

11.      Feelings like you are dying.

 

These are just a few of the signs or clues that will help you know that something wants to and must change now.  It is up to you to make a decision to find out more of what you can do to bring yourself back to “Remembering”.

 

Notice how you feel about this.  Pay attention to what is emerging.  Call it forth, let it flow.

 

It is time for us to join together in a new way and at a new level.  I would like to join with you and share all I know to support you in stepping up to your FULL potential and real reason for being here on this planet during this powerful transformational time.

 

If you have not read, “Bringers of the Dawn” by Barbara Marciniak, I highly recommend it.  If you have read it, read it again.  A new window has opened and it is time to implement some of the basic principles that are spoken about.  This is similar to what I heard in the 80’s and now with this new opening we are ready to ACT on it.

You can purchase Bringer of the Dawn on our web site http://esateys.com/prodDetails.php?ProdID=228  or through Amazon or most book stores), I highly recommend it. 

 

            Please comment here about this post and also write me an email about how you feel and if you would like to know more. 

        I will also continue to update here on this blog and our new web site which we are currently creating for this Project.

        In Freedom for the ALL,

E

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Post Surgery…The Awakening…Part 6

 

          HI All,

          I first want to thank all of you who have held such beautiful, Loving, healing energy for me.  Thank you also for all of the kind, loving emails that you have sent to support me in my process.  It has been quite the adventure.  I just went back and read the last post.  Things have changed so much and so quickly that I will do my best to thread Part 5 to Part 6……

          I spent the next few days in somewhat of a fog.  The pain was a little less but the emotions were still strong and deep.  I went to see the doctor for my week follow-up visit.  She removed the splints in my nose.  When she reached up inside and clipped the sutures I felt a rush of pain into my brain center.  When she pulled out the splint on the first side Rafael said, “Holy Crap”.  They were really big and it was amazing that they could fit something 3 or 4” up into the nasal cavity.

          The relief of their removal was instantaneous. I had not realized the intensity of the pressure they were presenting until they were out.

 It was so wonderful to be able to breathe a full breath. I felt the right side of my face as a clear hollow space for the first time since I could ever remember.

          She told me I was doing really well and I did not need to return for 3 weeks.

       Within 24 hours of the splint removal I was off the pain medication and my head started to clear.  My depression started to lift and I started having visions and memories of things I had not been seeing.

          For example, I saw Rafael as a Being who was here as human but also living on another planet in another galaxy.  This was pretty cool since it happened while I was sitting in bed, mid day and he was just walking by.  No meditation or anything mystical, just a simple clear vision of him being in two places at once.

          I started seeing others like Kyrie, my friend in her true form which is a Crystalline Being from a Crystalline Planet.  I started receiving information about my True Purpose here and the Purpose of The 144,000 and the Million Plus that are to be a part of The MultiDimensional Peace Project.  (I will blog about this in my next post)

          I was still weak and had to stay in bed for anther full week.  I continued to sleep upright in bed.  After week #2 I started getting up a little each day to regain my strength.  I am today at week #3 and I am able to exercise some and be fully active each day.  Last night I slept flat in bed with only two pillows.  Rafael and all 3 dogs and I became a family again. J

          I have become clear and in full remembrance of many, many things.  The energy has been extremely intense and powerful.  I have Awakened to a new level.  I am aware of everything but have noticed that I am not at effect of things that I used to be reactive to.  I see and observe some old patterns that arise but do not have the same perceptions about them.  I am different. 

          I have moved through a gateway.  There has been an opening.

          I know Donna has left and I am freer and now able to do what I have come here for and to support others in remembering this for themselves, as well.

          I will keep you updated on the health part if anything new comes up.  For now I move on to what has happened and what kind of information I have been receiving.

  It is VERY pertinent to YOU.  Stay tuned.

In Freedom, 

E  www.esateys.com

 

Living or Dying — The Surgery- Part 5

 

            When we arrived at the Legacy Emanuel Hospital http://www.legacyhealth.org/ it was interesting to note that even some of the most major of surgeries are done in the Day Surgery Unit.  This means that you go in, get a mini hospital room, they prep you and wheel you into the operating room on the bed you are in.  I am not sure but I think they even do surgery while you are on that same bed (well it is more like a fancy guerny).

            The nurses were really nice and fortunately she was able to get the IV in without a problem.  I was not looking forward to that part since others have had a hard time getting my veins to agree to the perceived abuse.

            The anesthesiologist came in and told me what she would be doing .  I liked her.  Good thing since she would have my Life in her hands.  I actually never thought of that until right now but that person really holds your Life in their hands.  One wrong spin of the gas dial and you are gone.  Anyway, about an hour or so later both the anesthesiologist and my surgeon came in to visit.  They told Rafael and I about the drugs and the procedure and the length of time it would take.  I was reassured that since this was a Functional Endoscopic Sinus Surgery (FESS)   http://entmd.org/healthinfo/sinus/sinus_surgery.cfm  

 (Image Guided Surgery)

http://www.ohsu.edu/ent/sinus/computerimage.htm

there would be no incisions but they would be putting splints in both sides of my nose to try and realign the septum since the tumor had completely displaced it.  Dr. C-Z told us that if the tumor looked suspicious for malignancy she would do a frozen section http://jama.ama-assn.org/cgi/content/full/294/24/3200.  She assured me that even if that was not done she was going to remove all possible tissue, treating the tumor as if it were cancer.  She also reassured us that she did not think it was malignant.

            I kissed Rafael, told him with so much love in my heart how I adored him and appreciated him, did my breathing and meditating as they injected the “good night” medicine into my IV.  Darn, that stuff works fast.  I was out in a nano-second.

            Rafael can comment on this blog if he would like, on what went on with him but the next thing I remember was being back, somewhat awake and wondering how it went.  It went well.

           She did do a frozen section which showed Spindle cell tissue http://www.answers.com/topic/spindle-cell?cat=health.  We would know the full pathology report as to cancer in 2 to 7 days.

 She also told Rafael before I awakened that the tumor was quite large.  In fact, so big she could not get it out through the nostril in one piece but rather had to be cut in half.  It was also bigger than her thumb which was shocking to her. It was touching the brain but had not attached.  That was another gift.  It had taken over the ethmoid sinus http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ethmoid_bone so it had to be removed. It blocked the sphenoid sinus as well. She also said it was a good thing that the surgery was done now as I would have been dead in a year.  (That shook him up a bit.)

I was feeling some pain but overall after a few hours of coming back to alertness I felt ready to go home. The close to 9 hours we were there went very fast for me but my heart went out to Rafael who had to sit and wait and wonder.  I had the easier of the tasks from my view point.

Another gift of this whole experience has been that any judgments I have had about Rafael have fallen away.  I see a pureness, I true pureness in him unlike I have ever seen before.  He is like a saint to me.  I see his as that now.  Maybe the tumor being so close to my optic nerve has been another gift  J because it has truly changed my inner vision.

The next 48 hours were not real comfortable.  The medicine made my stomach very unhappy and I was in a lot of pain. I also had bone pain (some bone had been removed) which is such a deep aching, gnawing feeling.  When I took the pain medicine I felt sick but if I did not I felt like a spike was being drilled into my face. 

On Friday morning, just 48 hours after the surgery, we received a call from Dr. C-Z.  She sounded like a child at Disneyland.  “The fax paper is still hot. The tumor is benign! I wanted to call and tell you myself.”  I realized at that moment that perhaps she had not been aware that she had some doubt in the back of her mind about this being non-malignant.  Even though my deepest core felt all was well, I still felt a slight wave of relief go through me.  She explained that the tumor was very rare. In fact, in her 15 years of practice she had never seen one.  It is called a Schwannoma,   http://www.scielo.br/pdf/anp/v61n4/a29v61n4.pdf

which is a nerve generated tumor, usually benign and found on the spine or other parts of the body but not the nasal area..  She said she thought it would be good to write a medical article on it.

            The next two days were not much more fun than the first two after surgery.  I had to focus on being ok with being so down and out and not judging myself for still hurting.  I also have never been all that great at receiving and having my precious husband get up every 4 hours through the night with me was a little hard to accept.  To top it off he could not sleep in the same bed as me as I had to sleep sitting up.  So he was ousted to the guest bedroom.  Neither of us were alone though.  I had K-Kosh my Toy Schnauzer of 5 years who sleeps under the covers and my Lapadoodle, Ikana who is a little 8 pound Labradoodle www.aprinalabradoodles.com

 Tashaun, Rafael’s precious pup who is also a Labradoodle slept with him.  Well, it does give me more room in our bed which usually houses all of us at once  J

I was fighting periods of depression and a sense of loss.  I felt like I did not know who I was, where I was going and I was forced so much into the moment with this whole experience that I could see nor plan much, if any of a future.  This of course was felt and was also being experienced by Rafael.  When my Life shifts so does his and vice versa.  We are all so connected.

I could tell things had changed but I was not able to see or know what they were yet.  I had my follow up appointment with the doctor coming up.  I was looking forward to it as I still needed some reassurance that all was on tract since I was still feeling pretty down and out most of the time.

I spent most of my time thinking about God and yearning for God to take me.  Sometimes it would be so intense that I did not know how I would make it to the next moment. I then felt guilty because I was “wanting”.  I felt like I just needed to embrace the moment and be ok with it and darn I just couldn’t.  I was crying easily and although I did not want to die.  I somehow felt like I had already died and was lost in a strange land with nowhere to go and nothing to do.  I felt like my only relief would be to be in the full remembrance of God.  To know who I really was.  I started saying, “I call forth for the Power of the God I Am”.  I needed the strength that I knew the ego could NOT provide.  I wanted to be Home. I wanted Peace. I wanted Union.  I wanted to remember ALL of who I was…I wanted to be Awake in the Game.

To Be Continued

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Living or Dying- Walk-Ins and Near Death Experiences- Part 4

 

            I have had surgery before so knew what to expect.  I had been feeling and ‘hearing’ that this experience was necessary as there was to be an ‘energy exchange’ that would occur during the surgery.

            If you know much about me or have read my book, HELP! I’m Trapped In a BODY www.esateys.com you know I had a near-death experience http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Near-death_studies in 1981.  When I went through the windshield and lost consciousness for a bit I did not remember what went on during those few unconscious moments, for many years.  I did have psychics and others tell me I was a Walk-In http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Walk-in. I had no idea what a Walk-In was, as I had never heard of such a thing.  The only time I had heard the term was if you walk into a hair salon without an appointment but certainly nothing that was related to a spiritual experience.         

  I have had (and have never spoken about this publically) an awareness that I have been carrying two souls within my body.  One soul is of Donna who was the resident of this body before my accident and the newcomer, Esateys.  Donna is an old soul that had just could not evolve alone any more and my (Esateys) agreement has been to take on the karma of this body and Donna and evolve myself to Awakening while Awakening mankind.

I wondered if I was going to have another soul exchange or gosh maybe a third soul coming in.  Most people have no idea what things can and do happen on the unseen level and most won’t know because they live in such a state of fear and closed-mindedness that expanded thoughts can not even enter.

            My knowing was that Donna’s soul was going to leave and Esateys would be left to finish up karma etc and get on with my real work.

            I have to admit that the years since 1981 have not been all that much fun.  Taking on this karma and being here in this body that is so incredibly sensitive and seemingly fragile has been tough.  In addition, the pull of the illusion and being lost in it off and on did not lend complete clarity in every moment.

            As long as I am “telling it all” I will add that I have lived my Life kind of “in a closet”.  I have not spoken about these things to hardly anyone.  The fear of rejection was too big.  The fear of being hurt or even killed crossed my mind as well (this I learned was a cellular imbedded issue from Donna speaking out in past lives about God and being killed for it).

            Myself as Esateys do not originate from this planet. I guess you could label me an Alien. http://www.thefreedictionary.com/alien

            Alien to me just means not familiar with…not origianting from….foreign…Alien might strike a cord of extra terrestrial or something weird but for me it is just as I said in the last sentence. 

 Actually very few people are first from Earth. It has not been my main place of residence.  I in fact have never been in body here before.  This is true for many of you as well.  You know the feeling like you do not belong and just do not fit in?  Many times this is because you too are from elsewhere and have come during this incredible time to support the birth of Earth and Mankind to a new frequency and way of Living.  So many of you are masters from afar and so capable and when dropping in here (Earth) became lost again due to the amazing density of this plane of existence. The degree of pain and suffering that is prominent here rapes the mind of its ‘knowing’.  It strips the awareness to a minimum.  It is supposed to.  That is the way it plays out here.  This is The Game. (To learn about The Game called Life click here) http://www.esateys.com/prodDetails.php?ProdID=57

 Not real.  Just a Movie, a Dream.  Still when you are here it seems so real, until it doesn’t. 

            The over- all frequency of Earth is rising rapidly.  With it comes the ‘Remembering”.  You will find yourself remembering who you are.  That means who you REALLY are.  Not the wife, husband, worker-bee, parent etc.  Rather, the soul inside the person.  The REAL you.  You will remember why you came here and what you are to do to express God in Her/His finest form call YOU.  You will see that all of this IS truly a Game and you will find yourself playing it with passion and not fear.  You will find the joy, freedom and full expression of you as God instead of the constriction and restriction in every breath, situation or event.  You will breathe deeply and fully, the power and clarity of everything, and you will know the blessedness of each moment.  This is here now and for some it may still be in the ‘forth-coming’ stage.  Look for it.  Be aware of this. Live it now.  No need to wait any longer. It will get easier and easier.  Trust in that and NEVER EVER GIVE UP.

            These are the type of thoughts were passing through my mind as the day of surgery approached.  And they were not the only ones.  I also had the ones I mentioned in my previous blog about What about Dying?  What if this was my last stand, so to speak.  I was feeling death all over me and in the corner of my mind I also remembered how many times I had felt the feeling of death.  I learned that it was not so much the feeling of death of the body but rather the death of another part of the ego and the changing of concepts and beliefs that were dying away.  The things that were no longer important or applicable to who I am now.  This is happening for you too.  Have you noticed more grief?  Have you felt any loneliness, even though people were around?  Unexplainable fears, even terror?  Yes I know it all so well.

            On the way to the hospital I felt some shakiness in the body.  I spoke to my body and reminded it that it would be ok.  It has been through so many traumas that it was reacting to the needles and other moments of pain that were forth-coming.

            To Be Continued

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Are We Living or Dying in each Moment Part 3

Are We Living or Dying in each Moment– part 3…continued

                       

            The next few days were a blur.  We had several radio shows www.esateysradio.com to record since I did not know how long I would be out of commission.  I had many things to complete including planting my garden which I decided for the first time in about 15 years to plant. 

 

            This was no small project.  It covers about 3000 square feet and I had purchased about 30 different vegetable varieties. I was giving myself permission to take the time to do something I loved (and was healthy J ) but now I had to get it all planned, organized, planted and set up before surgery.  Fortunately we have someone who lives here on our property (Mike) who is an angel and who was willing to help me AND take care of things while I was recovering.  I was touched when Rafael came out to help me set things up and plant my first day out.  Mike was gone and although Rafael is not a gardener by first choice he delightfully came and lent his loving heart and strong hands to help me get radishes and several other seeds in the ground.

 

            By Tuesday I had most everything handled except being behind on my email a perpetual event J  The surgery was at noon on Wednesday so I started homeopathics to support my body in preparing for the general anesthetic, invasion and drugs that it would be experiencing.

 

            I slept well but as I was meditating I became aware of how many times I had reviewed my Life in the past few days.  Was I living Life the way I wanted to?  Was I doing what I really loved?  How true was I being to my hearts desire?  What if I were to die on the table?  What if this all meant that I would leave this planet in 30 days or 6 months or a year?  Was I at peace with all that had occurred so far?  Was there anyone I felt I needed to say anything to? 

 

            When you have a chance to do a Life review it is powerful if you let it.  It gives you opportunity to really take a look at your priorities.

 

            Gosh what if we did that without having to go through something like a possible Life Threat?  What if every morning when we awoke we felt the gift of Life and asked, “How can I experience and give more Love today?”

“How can I surrender to knowing more of God/Spirit today”  “God help me see everything and everyone through the eyes of Love in every moment” 

What if you went inside and asked your HEART what it would like in this day?  What if you started a new mantra, “I need do nothing, I am free.”

(see the fabulous book, “The Way of Mastery” by Shanti  Christo http://www.esateys.com/prodDetails.php?ProdID=219

            Waiting until something radical happens is one way.  Living today as if it were the most important precious day of your Life is another.

            What shall you choose when you awaken tomorrow morning?

 

To Be Continued

 

Are We Living or Dying, Right NOW continued

 

 

            Ya know when you pick up the energy of someone else’s fear (which is really your own since they are just a hologram) it really comes on strong. I felt a little like I was in shock.  Shock is just a wall we put up to not feel any intense feeling (which is usually fear).  I hung up the phone and went back to my email. 

As the evening progressed I decided to not say anything to anyone I spoke to until I knew more.  When I felt inside I could not find any feelings that felt like cancer or impending death.  Rafael (my husband) couldn’t either.

We waited about an hour before the doctor saw us.  When he finally entered the room he pulled out the CT scan and went over each picture.  He is really good at explaining things.  He showed us the occlusion on the whole right side of my face.  This tumor was big and taking up my entire ethmoid sinus and some of the sphenoid sinus, as well. (These are the honey comb structures along the side and in back of your nose.)   It also had grown through one side of my nose and was pushing my septum (the cartilage that divides your nose into two sides) all the way over to the far side instead of being in the center.

The report said it could be sarcoma (cancer) or an inverted papilloma or something unknown.

Dr. S was pretty cool. He questioned me about my symptoms again.  I could tell he was trying to understand how this could have happened and no one having known about it.

He said I needed to see a specialist asap.  He immediately called a friend of his while we were sitting there.  He told her (she was an ENT, ear, nose, throat specialist) what the report said and ask if she could see us soon. She said, “How about 2:00 PM  (it was noon when he called).  Tell her to bring the CT films.  We shuffled ourselves out of the office, over to the Imagining for a copy of the films, out to a quick lunch and were waiting in her office at 1:50.

The rooms were tiny as this was her satellite office.  As she bounced in the room I immediately liked her.  Her first words were, “OK I bet Thomas has you scared to death about dying and cancer.   Well, if you were Cantonese and male I would suggest you be scared, but you are not.  So relax. This tumor does not act like cancer.  It is too neat and tidy.”  She held up the CT films and showed us how clean the borders of the growth were.  Cancer is usually erratic and grows everywhere and out of control.  This is almost like a controlled growth (I am sure the control part had nothing to do with my personalityJ)

And I have to say that if it is an inverted papilloma it has about a 15-16% chance of being malignant.  We won’t know until we remove it.  That is our next step.”

Rafael and I had reservations for Maui that had been scheduled for almost a year.  We were to leave June 7^th.  She advised us that I could not fly for a month after the surgery. 

There I was no question for me, Maui or no Maui this was being removed as soon as she could do it.  Her schedule was packed and the next time available was late June.  I looked and at her and she looked at me and she said, I will do the surgery a week from the next Sat (about 11 days from the day I was seeing her.)  It seemed like a life-time to me but I agreed and a lot better than late June.

She explained that she was treating this as if it were cancer.  She would be excising everything she could inside the right side of my face with a new technology that she herself had brought into Oregon.  It was some kind of robotic device that used 3D CT technology which was downloaded into some computer type machine.  It was called Landmark. She would do the surgery while watching a TV screen and following the outline of a special 3D CT scan I was to go get done a week before the surgery.  She has taught about 30% if the ENT specialists in Oregon this new technique.

I felt blessed that I had such an expert to work on me.  She was bright, funny, loving and kind.  I was truly being taken care of.

We left her office feeling more relaxed and still that was a small underlying realization that everything in my Life was about to change. I wasn’t sure what it was but I could feel it.

The next morning I called her scheduling person to confirm my surgery time and she informed me that Dr. Susan C-Z as not able to do the surgery as she had hoped on that Saturday.  She had a conflict she had forgotten about. My heart sank. 

I took a breath and continued to listen as she said, “Instead, she will come in on her day off this next Wednesday.”  Tears welled within as I felt this whole event was in God’s hands.  That was only 6 days away which barely gave me time to get the next 3D scan, blood work etc etc. done.  I also had to get insurance approval.  Perfect.  Thank you, God.

To Be continued